Thirty Day Boss (Thirty Days To Love Book 1) by J. S. Cooper

Author:J. S. Cooper [Cooper, J. S.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2023-01-23T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter 15

Simon

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I couldn't believe Gemma had received a sexual text message from a man. I knew I didn't have any right to be angry or to ask her who he was or why he was messaging her those things. It wasn't like she was my girlfriend or anything. We weren't in a relationship, and I should be happy. I'd gotten what I'd wanted since the first time I'd met her, and it had been spectacular. Making love to Gemma had made me feel alive in ways I'd never felt before. It was weird to me to be physically and emotionally close to someone. What I felt for her was more than physical closeness, which surprised me because I didn't think I was capable of feeling those things. She stared up at me from the bed as I walked back into the kitchen with a glass of water; I sat down on the mattress and turned to her. She looked slightly sad, and I wondered if I'd made her feel that way. It upset me to think I was the one who had wiped the smile off her face. Just moments ago, we’d been all over each other and laughing, and now a stiffness existed between us. A tension that was so thick you’d need a machete to cut through it.

"Are you mad at me?" she asked me softly, blinking rapidly as if she were trying to stop from crying. Internally, I was berating myself for being cold, but this was always the place I went when I was upset and anxious.

"No, why?" My voice sounded harsher than I wanted, and I frowned. I wanted to hold her close and ask her about the text. I wanted to tell her that I found it hard to trust women. That I’d never had a healthy relationship. That I didn’t know how to communicate properly in situations like this. I wanted to tell her that real feelings and emotions overwhelmed me and made me feel like I was experiencing an out-of-body moment, but the words wouldn’t come. I wasn’t even sure I would know how to express those feelings without feeling like an idiot.

"Did you get what you wanted, and now you want me to disappear?" She played with her hair while wrinkling her nose. I watched as she pulled the sheet up over her body to cover herself, and I wanted to pull the sheet back down to tell her that she shouldn't cover up something so beautiful. But I didn't know how to say those words without sounding like a creep.

"I’m not mad at you, and I hope you're not mad at me. I hope you don't regret what we just did." Suddenly, it struck me that she regretted us making love. Maybe I'd read the signs wrong; perhaps she felt like she’d made a mistake sleeping with me.

"I'm not mad," she said, shaking her head slightly. "Why would I be mad?” She looked me up and down and stuck her tongue out at me.

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